You know that one cartoon with the coyote and the road runner? And right when things are going well for the coyote a big anvil falls on his head... I often feel that way, especially when things are going well. Typically when things are going horribly wrong in life, I'm "in it" and so bad things are apart of everyday life, you learn to deal. But what happens when things are actually going right for a change? Sometimes I feel like God is up there, just letting me get a taste of something good, but then he is going to drop a bomb on me. Where do i get that thinking? I try to believe that I worship a God who is loving and compassionate and although just, he is also full of mercy. So where do i get this idea that he is just waiting to do mean and horrible things to me? Unfortunately, I have been stuck in this kind of thinking for awhile. I do know that sometimes bad things happen, sometimes they even happen to people who are good. Sometimes bad things happen, just because and sometimes bad things happen to serve a purpose. But who says that God is a cruel tyrant just waiting to crush his next victim? I don't know that I've ever read that in the Bible, but yet that is often what I believe. It almost makes me feel better when something does go wrong, that way i can say, ok, bad thing #42 happened, cross that off my list, no more punishments for the day. Why do i always think I'm about to be punished for something? Or is it the natural consequences for making bad choices that one feels a punishment is in order? Good grief, its all so mind boggling.
I really do relish the moments when i can sit back and say, God, I know you love me. Period. No rationalizing, no trying to figure it all out, or make sense of it. Just plain ol' I accept your love in this moment.
I wonder if I will ever really reach a place when i can live my life not in fear of God's wrath but complete in his love?
Bad things will happen, but that doesn't mean that every moment of the day God is waiting for the perfect opportunity to put me in my place. That is not love. And God is love.
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Oh, so this is your serious blog :) I love it. I love your honesty and way with words. Keep sharing, please. You're good at it.
Is Life a Puzzle or Mystery?
Puzzles = Figuring It Out = Anxiety = Stuck
Mystery = Faith = Response = Meaning
The rain falls on the just and the unjust alike, sucka! -Bible
Some things happen that are just out of God's hands--I truly believe that. That's kind of the consequence of the human's "free will." But I do believe that God will provide us with the strength and courage to face those bad things--if we want it. I often think about how great our God is. . . taking the rap for all the bad things in the world and still giving us our grace and His love even when, as humans, we falter. K says it perfectly in her comment!
it was the male "k" who commented, the female "k" rarely goes that deep, in public.
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